Oohhh love... :)

I was holding on to him so hard that I didn't realize I was losing myself... I actually lost myself... because when I wondered what would happen if he told me that he doesn't love me anymore... ok, I thought... he has the right to choose who he wants to love..but then I thought...what about me...where would I be left?
I'd be nothing... no one... with no direction in life...
no no no... I won't let that happen I'm not going to end up behind some man.... I have to shine first.

All I know at this point is, that when I see his pictures I still get this feeling inside of happiness and hope and tenderness... kind of butterflies in the stomach but not so shallow. its a little more intense.
I remember waking up next to him and just seeing his calmness, his perfect smile, his manly neck, comfy arms around me and just giving thanks to God and life... for putting him on my destiny.


What happened to this strong love?
I remember that I prayed for that love to last, but it got to a point where we wouldn't be on the same page: we wanted different things from life and then we lost it.I was asking too much from him and he was losing interest in me.
I wished from my heart to get back together,... but it just wasn't the same. I'd still have this anger inside.....

I believe time pretty much heals everything..... I mean I've stopped feeling obsesed about him... and this happened a long time ago..... I didn't even realize when...
Now I'm at the position where I only want him to be happy. I love him of course but I won't force anything... If he's not happy with me then it's OK. I accept it.


Ok so lets learn from this.....What do I want in a man:
I want someone supportive. who will understand me,
someone who'd know when I need my space, and when I need a comforting hug, or when I need a kiss.
I want someone who can commit to our goals as a couple. Because in a couple there are two, who in mind and heart become one.
I want someone who likes children because it implies patience and tenderness, and I admit that women get crazy sometimes... and men have to deal with that.
I want someone who will communicate with me.... He needs to tell me what he feels, I'm not a mind reader... sometimes I can percieve.. but not always.
I want to feel protection in his arms and passion in his kisses.
Someone who will appreciate what I do for him..because I'm that kind of person I like to spoil them....
Of course I would give him his freedom and privacy, every man needs that, and a man needs to be appreciated.. of course I want to be proud of him.. you know what they say... "behind every great man there's a great woman"
Ok so as long as I can trust him... I'd love him.