Amar

Algo que aprendí este año es que el mundo es mas brillante, calido y feliz cuando uno aprende a amar.
Amar a su familia, amar a su pareja, amar su trabajo, amar a sus amigos...a amar su vida.
Suena cursi, pero amar deriva del sustanitvo amor, que deriva del latín A (sin) Mortem (muerte) = sin muerte, por lo tanto amor es eternidad. Amor es vida,
amar es vivir...... vivir mejor..... vivir plenamente.... es vivir felices.

Al fin y al cabo todos queremos ser felices en esta vida, es lo unico que todos tenemos en común.

al menos un momento

Tantas cosas que damos por sentado.
pequeñas acciones que para una persona ajena parecen insignificantes...
para la persona involucrada significará algo, al menos un momento:
una sonrisa. una ilusión. una esperanza en medio de un día gris.

Hoy decidí reflejar mi sonrisa.
para algunos pasará desapercibida... meintras que para alguien significará algo mas.
algo que ocasione una sonrisa, al menos un momento.

Amneris' Letter

I'm sorry for everything I've said
And for anything I forgotten to say too
When things get so complicated
I stumble, at best, muddle through

I wish that our lives could be simple
No, I don't want the world, only you
Oh, I wish I could tell you this face to face
But there's never the time, never the place
So, this letter will have to do
I love you

Antes

Antes de empezar ...yo te perdono
en brazos de este amor me estaba haciendo lodo
Antes de empezar me gustaría,
saber por qué este amor se hizo pesadilla

Antes de esperarte toda la vida
debes saber, eres el amor de mi vida
nadie me hizo tan feliz
nadie como yo te adoró
y las razones que nos separaron parecen pocas...

Antes de dejarte ir yo solo espero
que no haya sido yo, un desliz en tu camino
pues yo sabía hasta ahora..
que este amor era infinito

Pero hoy me doy cuenta,
que te esperaba aqui sentada aunque no haya nada.
y si te amé demasiado
logico, tomó tiempo olvidarte

Antes de acabar de despedirme
tienes que saber que no me marcho triste...
que no quiero herirte aunque me pierdas
ni que me hagas daño aunque me quieras

Antes de seguir con esta historia
de todo lo mejor, lo guardo en la memoria
Y antes de seguir con desengaños...
te dejo esta oracíon como único legado

Y con este verso te dejo libre y no te espero ya.... nunca más.

Our Fatal Flaw

The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw: my inability to change.

I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels safer somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be out there, waiting for you. Chances are it could be even worse.

So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict. You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little.

When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really close. Which, thank God, they never do.

But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again.

From: Ephram Brown's Essay on Everwood

Adiós Melancolía - RIcardo Arjona

Tengo un domingo en stand by, por si algún lunes te deprime,
Y en la cartera un ánfora que guarda olor a ti,
Tengo boletos de primera fila, para verte despertar por las mañanas,
Tengo la firme convicción, de que si estás me consolido,
Y la sospecha de que ni sospechas cuanto te amo,
Tengo tu foto puesta en la pupila,
Y con tu voz baila el estribo, el yunque y el martillo.

Tengo risas, tengo llantos, tengo un termostato,
Que me enciende cuando estás,
Y que me apaga si te vas
Pa` no morir de la nostalgia.

Adiós melancolía,
Gracias por la compañía,
Pero aquí ya no hay mas sitio para usted.

Adiós melancolía,
Le agradezco la poesía,
Que entre versos hoy me deja confesarle a usted,
Que me saque la lotería cuando lo vi.

Tengo una dosis de perdón, por si haces algo que me duela,
Y una canción de más por si algún día la echas de menos,
Tengo un stock de besos sin estreno,
Y un camión de amor del bueno, para ti.

Hoy cuelgo mis sueños en el pearcing de tu ombligo,
Mientras la melancolía observa y es testigo,
Quiere estar segura, un poco por ti,
Un poco por mí, un poco por celos.

Tengo agua de mar en la bañera, y en la cama aire de cordillera,
Tengo sol de mayo en la nevera, y flores de abril en la escalera,
Tengo un cuarto lleno en primavera, y un beso esperando en la trinchera,
Un jarrón que llora cuando espera, y te tengo a ti por donde quiera.
Y te tengo a ti por donde quiera.

Lucky

this easter has been one of those moments... it kinda changed my perspective of life.
I became aware of so many things that I usually took for granted.
I also realized that our people in this society normally tend to focus on what they don't have, therefore they're usually complaining about everything. I see that as the stone holding our willingness to succeed. Why does this happen? probably because we tend to focuss on what we don't have or what we are missing.

Today I was told: "Lets start our lives from now on, being thankful and cherish all the blessings we have around us.
And when we are feeling this, we should pass it to somebody else. Joy happiness and hope are feelings that should be transmited."
So then I looked around me and saw many things that surround me like nature and the beautiful gifts that we were given in this earth, but it wasn't until I visited some friends I hadn't seen in a while, that I realized how blessed I am.
The last time I saw them we were talking about the things that we don't have in our life, some said a partner, some said time, some said money... and tonight as I visited them, they reminded me that I said then that nothing was missing in my life. I told them I had everything. Well I meant it that time, but time passed and now I had forgotten all the blessing I have.

JUST LOOK AROUND YOU!
I have my health, I have my family, I have education, I have food and shelter. I have a job and a source of income....I have nice clothes and things that are considered luxury items. I have the priviledge of having internet access and 3 languages in my power to be exploited and so many other things that for me are normal, but so many people would do anything to have those things.
Finally I have love, it's all around me, starting with my friends, family and everyone else.. that make me realize how lucky I am. I am a unique and special being who can do or reach anything she sets her mind to. I have everything I need.

a better you

what is about love hat makes us so stupid?
it makes you feel so wonderful that you want to burst free, you smile every time you hear that song... but what's amazing about love is that even though it makes you feels so wonderful, it also lets you "die slowly" with a broken heart. it doesn't kill you though... its like living with a knife in your chest: it hurts.

I learned that some people live for love and some don't. I guess it has to do with maturity,,... anyway you should live WITH love. Not for love. otherwise you'll end up disappointed every time you fall in love.
love has to be a part of your life.. it gives sense to it, it warms you at night, its companionship and understandment.
but it doesn't kill you if you don't have it. you might think it will, but it wont I can guarantee that.

I made a fool of myself so many times ...in matters of the heart. It took me so much time to let you go...I finally did it. and it took me this long only because I loved you so very much. And it feels weird cause I always thought that you were meant for me. I tried to forget that once you made me happy and to remember every time that it was my mistake to let myself love you that much.
In this process of healing you live kinda in the middle... my heart reminds me once in a while how much you mean to me, but then I remember that in your life there's no place for me... and I thought to myself .. how's possible that I still care about you if you don't do the same for me? I wish I wasn't this nice...

Time passed and time fixed it: the wound healed, though the scar will always be there...
Finally I decided to move on.
I know now that I was meant to shine, with or without you.
I never thought I was lucky...but then I realized I was meant to brighten someone's life and when I decide to do it.. I do it.
So I want you to know that I loved you at the moment with every bit of my soul.

Now I am looking for someone who'd consider himself lucky because he has me in his life, someone who will support me in bad times, help me get a better view, when its' time to make decisions. Someone who'd understand when I need a kiss or to hear "I love you" or just sense when I need a comforting hug from him. that's what love is about.
So lets say that I am looking for a better you

Life as a House

"I always thought of myself as a house. I was always what I lived in. It didn't need to be big. It didn't even need to be beautiful. It just needed to be mine. I became what I was meant to be. I built myself a life. I built myself a house."

There are two kinds in my opinion... two opposites, those are:
the people who build the structure, the people who build the foundations.
they are the ones who give protection, a solid trusty structure... they plan and act and give direction to life... they are the lines, the shape...
but they need inspiration.. for that matter
there are the other kind of people, the ones who fill the structure.
they are the ones you see full of life. they brighten the inhuman, unearthly structure... they give life to it, they give light to the structure. they are the colors of life.
two people full of life couldn't work togheter,for they wouldn't have a structure to protect them... their lives would be a complete mess. they need direction and protection. the same thing happens with two structured people... they wouldnt give life to the house they've built... they wouldn't have any inspiration to build their future projects... they would live in a colorless, senseless world.

Sri Yogananda said "only that which is the other gives us fully unto ourselves"
We are meant to be complemented. to be completed.

Memorable quotes

"If you smash into something good, you should hold on until it's time to let go."

"Never lose your childish innocence. It's the most important thing.", "Regrets are a waste of time. They're the past crippling you in the present." F Fellini

"knowing others is intelligence, knowing yourself is true wisdom"Lao-Tzu

"what lies before us and what lies behind us is nothing compare to what lies within us" Emerson

"our truest life is when we are in dreams awake" , "Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined" Thoreau

The mind is everything: what u think, u become" buddha

"Whatever u can do or dream u can do, begin it. Boldness has a genius, power and magic in it. Begin it now" Goethe

"Great efffort form great motives is the best definition of a happy life" W E Channing

"The end of wisdom is to dream high enough not to lose the dream in the seeking of it" faulkner

"If u do not hope, u will not find what is beyond our hopes" alexandria

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams" E roosevelt

"Perseverance furthers" I Ching

Today's the best day of my life

Today is the beginning of my new life.
I am starting over today
All good things are coming to me today
I am grateful to be alive
I see beauty all around me
I live with passion and purpose
I take time to laugh and play every day
I am awake, energized and alive
I focus on all the good things in my life
And give thanks for them
I am at peace and one with everything
I feel the love , the joy, the abundance
I am free to be myself
I am magnificence in human form
I am the perfection of life
I am grateful to be
Me.

Today’s the best day of my life.

I promise myself...

To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness and prosperity to every person I meet.
To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.
To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.
To think only of the best, to work only for the best and to expect only the best.
To be as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own.
To forget mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile to every living creature I meet.
To give so much time to improving myself that I have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.
To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words, but in greater deeds.
To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side, so long as I am true to the best that is in me.

Say - John Mayer

Take out of your wasted honor Every little past frustration
Take all of your so called problems Better put them in quotations
Say what you need to say

Walkin like a one man army Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment Knowing you’d be better off instead
If you could only Say what you need to say

Have no fear for giving in Have no fear for giving over
You better know that in the end its better to say too much
Than to never to say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing Do it with a heart wide open
Why? Say what you need to say

Life's about

It is simple,
Life’s about smiling and laughing
Life’s about dreaming.
The person that doesn’t dream has lost its essence, its inner child - the child that was amazed about colours, sounds and tastes.

Life’s about enjoying the good times and seeing the purpose of the bad times
Life’s about opening your mind to new, different things, just for the hell of it.



Life’s about trying,
Life’s about aiming so high that it almost seems impossible,

Life’s about hoping, and praying and believing that things just happen for the best.
Life’s perfect, what’s meant to stay will stay. Otherwise it wont go in your direction.

Life’s about assuming your responsibilities and finishing them doing your best effort.
Life’s about giving and expecting nothing in return.


Life’s about loving.
Love makes our life exciting or miserable at times, even though it’s a complicated process –falling in love, loving someone, losing them it’s worth every second.
Life’s about forgiving and never regretting, there’s no point in being resentful - it doesn’t bring anything good for you, right?

Life’s about learning, you’ll learn that u never stop learning…
…learning to appreciate each thing that comes to your life
nothing is there on luck: everything has its purpose.
…learn to set up goals for your life and achieve them,
and fight for them, and never, never, never give up.

At the end “la vida es un ratico”, we have to spend time smartly
otherwise we are not taking a good use of our time given in this earth

Oohhh love... :)

I was holding on to him so hard that I didn't realize I was losing myself... I actually lost myself... because when I wondered what would happen if he told me that he doesn't love me anymore... ok, I thought... he has the right to choose who he wants to love..but then I thought...what about me...where would I be left?
I'd be nothing... no one... with no direction in life...
no no no... I won't let that happen I'm not going to end up behind some man.... I have to shine first.

All I know at this point is, that when I see his pictures I still get this feeling inside of happiness and hope and tenderness... kind of butterflies in the stomach but not so shallow. its a little more intense.
I remember waking up next to him and just seeing his calmness, his perfect smile, his manly neck, comfy arms around me and just giving thanks to God and life... for putting him on my destiny.


What happened to this strong love?
I remember that I prayed for that love to last, but it got to a point where we wouldn't be on the same page: we wanted different things from life and then we lost it.I was asking too much from him and he was losing interest in me.
I wished from my heart to get back together,... but it just wasn't the same. I'd still have this anger inside.....

I believe time pretty much heals everything..... I mean I've stopped feeling obsesed about him... and this happened a long time ago..... I didn't even realize when...
Now I'm at the position where I only want him to be happy. I love him of course but I won't force anything... If he's not happy with me then it's OK. I accept it.


Ok so lets learn from this.....What do I want in a man:
I want someone supportive. who will understand me,
someone who'd know when I need my space, and when I need a comforting hug, or when I need a kiss.
I want someone who can commit to our goals as a couple. Because in a couple there are two, who in mind and heart become one.
I want someone who likes children because it implies patience and tenderness, and I admit that women get crazy sometimes... and men have to deal with that.
I want someone who will communicate with me.... He needs to tell me what he feels, I'm not a mind reader... sometimes I can percieve.. but not always.
I want to feel protection in his arms and passion in his kisses.
Someone who will appreciate what I do for him..because I'm that kind of person I like to spoil them....
Of course I would give him his freedom and privacy, every man needs that, and a man needs to be appreciated.. of course I want to be proud of him.. you know what they say... "behind every great man there's a great woman"
Ok so as long as I can trust him... I'd love him.

Tomorrow

Yesterday is history, it has become a part of us.
Today is our choice, were u wanna be is where u are.
Tomorrow is uncertain. is not a fact. it is an unpathed water.

"Take out of your wasted honor, every little past frustration
Take all of your so called problems, better put them in quotations
Say what you need to say...
Walkin like a one man army, fightin with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment, knowing you’d be better off instead
If you could only ..Say what you need to say
Have no fear for giving in, Have no fear for giving over
You better know that in the end its better to say too much
Than to never to say what you need to say again
Even if your hands are shaking and your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing, do it with a heart wide open
Why? Say what you need to say" *

we spend so much time in nonsenses, we actually waste most of our live if u think like that.
if we choose to learn form every situation that we go by then our life is going to be so much better...
the thing is to experience new things, to live to the most, without harming others. making our life a unique Life

Routine is the enemy of greatness, it is our automatic, or autopilot mode. we run through a day doing certain things that become mechanical.. we can't help but do this cause there are some things that do not require much effort.
I believe we should avoid doing this, or else we'd became robots who don't appreciate their surroundings
we should never stop our amusement for every thing...its a matter of quality rather than quantity.
do u think that the poeple who've seen most of our world are the ones who have traveled the most? no. absolutely not.
they are the people who have enjoyed more their lives... making it a once in a lifetime experience...

In the end... tomorrow is gonna be a new day .. al the harms will be on a yesterday page of our life...

I realized this when I heard the song Say from John Mayer... which is the soundtrack from "The Bucket list"

Wisdom

There are so many things waiting to be seen, so many books waiting to be read, so many stories to be told, so many songs to be heard.... Starting with the ones that are next to us, they are a whole different universe....

"No one is wise by birth, for wisdom results from one's efforts" said sri tirumalai
As I write this I realized there's so little time to do, learn, and experience so many things and knowledge.

We were given a definte existance... thus we pass through our existence just living the day.... when we should be learning most of the time.

knowing others is inteligence, knowing yourself is true wisdom is something that my grandma told me...
grandparents are so wise... I love hearing her stories... ( well to me they are stories... but it is actually part of her life)

There's so much that I can't even explain it.. its amazing.. how big is our universe....
A special tool that we humans were given to pass on our wisdom is the ability to express ourselves... that is so important... that is the only way of keeping the knowledge.... so Share it!

in the end it is only a matter of attitude as I always say.
to live as much as we want and enjoy the majority of our existance given in this earth.. or we can pass this life as another living mass

It's up to you

Its amazing how we learn to depend on things.
Men were created without any addition to its body. We were built in such a perfect way, that we should be self-sufficient.. to survive, at least.
Nowadays we've evolved into dependent beings of other creations or even other persons. That's even more absurd, because we make ourselves believe that without some particular person we couldn't breathe or something. There's no such thing. we make-believe this to our mind.
With the mind that we were given, we made it to develop certain appliances to help us go through our daily lives. Such improvement was given to our lives, to the point were we created most of things we use daily.
I just proved to myself that it is all up to you.


its up to one.
we are capable of doing anything we'd like to achieve. its an attitude issue.
it has to do with our will. with our commitment to achieving those goals.
and especially about finding what is That which we want to get, feel , achieve, experience.

As someone said, life's meant to be wonderful. we are meant to be whatever it is that we want to be. that is wonderful.

little me

Today has been a good day.. Ive got to the point where I felt very little. I mean I know a lot about myself an my own universe... I felt like I know so little about life.
I know so little about everything.there's so much to do and learn in life that I have not enough time to learn it, unless I start now.
ok, this is what I know... this is about myself... at this point Me and my life it have been my major study. I have been studying myself for the last 21 years....



I'm a dreamer- always drifting off, my imagination takes control. I have big ideas and cool calm manner.
A go-getter - living life two steps ahead of the rest, I'm racing ahead. I believe my drive and curiosity will take me all over the world, though sometimes I need to be told it's good to slow down.
An easy rider- always taking life as it comes, and living the moment,. I dont get fazed by life... I just breeze through
I'm wild cat- live life to the full, take any opportunity that's given to me. Always first to take the plunge I am confident and sometimes a little wild.
I'm sophisticate - like to live the high life: mixing in the right circles; always look their best; I like to impress and make an impact.
I'm a junkie monkey - don't have rules, and don't like trestrictions. I make my own choices, and do as I please. for me pleasure always comes first.
back to basics- sriving for a simpler life, done without disposable trends - I'm inspired by nature and longevity.


A high time roller- only seen in the best, and the finest, love top quality, high-end glamour...always adding a touch of sophistication to the proceedings.
A new wave puritan- strict, organised, and ever so neat - I practice the art of self-discipline. I like things done simply but with an eye for detail.
a conqueror- full of ambition, and energy - cavalier and always moving onto the next level.
a worker bee- my ambition drives me through life - work is my no.1 priority. diligent and commited.
an escape artist- I'm forever slipping off, getting away from the rat race, and recharging those batteries.
independent and thoughtful - I know myself pretty well.
A thriller-I have a good sense of fun and an infectious giggle. I can make the best of any situation...I've been told that it's always a lot of fun to be around me... I love to laugh and have a bit of naughty side, being good all the time is a boring.
I'm touchy feely...love is about human contact - the nitty gritty.
I am very physical- a high sex drive demands plenty attention.
I'm nice n' cheesy...flowers and chocolate are a way to my heart. I believe chivalry is not dead, I expect to be wooed - love like it is in the movies.
I'm a home soul..my heart is always in the nest, I place real importance on friendships. I'm family minded and like to forge strong relationships.
a love bug.. the type to fall in love a thousand times a day. My feelings snowball quickly but I'm full of passion.

A real romantic and a bit of a dreamer. Ok life may not be a movie but what's wrong with thinking it is?
freedom- I think of living for the here and now. I'm pretty fearless and take every opportunity given to me.
As for music, it's the soundtrack to my world. It gives me focus and concentration - sometimes I find it hard to switch off.
I am happy spending time alone.
I have a taste for the exotic: I love feeling the sea breeze in my hair, the sun on my skin, slip those shoes off and feel the sand between my toes.

insatiable! is what someone told me once.... why? because my thirst for affection never drops.
I know a little bit about people.. about human relations. I am a good advisor they say.. I'm good with people...