a better you

what is about love hat makes us so stupid?
it makes you feel so wonderful that you want to burst free, you smile every time you hear that song... but what's amazing about love is that even though it makes you feels so wonderful, it also lets you "die slowly" with a broken heart. it doesn't kill you though... its like living with a knife in your chest: it hurts.

I learned that some people live for love and some don't. I guess it has to do with maturity,,... anyway you should live WITH love. Not for love. otherwise you'll end up disappointed every time you fall in love.
love has to be a part of your life.. it gives sense to it, it warms you at night, its companionship and understandment.
but it doesn't kill you if you don't have it. you might think it will, but it wont I can guarantee that.

I made a fool of myself so many times ...in matters of the heart. It took me so much time to let you go...I finally did it. and it took me this long only because I loved you so very much. And it feels weird cause I always thought that you were meant for me. I tried to forget that once you made me happy and to remember every time that it was my mistake to let myself love you that much.
In this process of healing you live kinda in the middle... my heart reminds me once in a while how much you mean to me, but then I remember that in your life there's no place for me... and I thought to myself .. how's possible that I still care about you if you don't do the same for me? I wish I wasn't this nice...

Time passed and time fixed it: the wound healed, though the scar will always be there...
Finally I decided to move on.
I know now that I was meant to shine, with or without you.
I never thought I was lucky...but then I realized I was meant to brighten someone's life and when I decide to do it.. I do it.
So I want you to know that I loved you at the moment with every bit of my soul.

Now I am looking for someone who'd consider himself lucky because he has me in his life, someone who will support me in bad times, help me get a better view, when its' time to make decisions. Someone who'd understand when I need a kiss or to hear "I love you" or just sense when I need a comforting hug from him. that's what love is about.
So lets say that I am looking for a better you